the other side of my life..
everyday of my life i have to live my difficult life.
where i have to deal with other people’s annoying words.
where i have to deal with other people’s feelings.
where i have to deal with what other people think or says to me.
when i have to laugh at those hurtful, annoying jokes.
every single day of my life i have to live my life behind a mask, a mask that’s always happy and always has a big smile on it.
when im behind that mask you’ll never see me cry, sad or being lonely.
but when you’ll just look deeper, you’ll see…
that when people say annoying things or hurtful things to me,
i just want to punch their annoyinng face until they take back what they had said.
sometimes i just want to cry my eyes out but there’s no tears…
and sometimes as i lay on my bed, while looking at the ceiling..
a tear fall down my face, somehow, i just cant stop it.
i hate it when people laugh..
when people whispers..
when people are look at me..
when people stares.
its so painful when people are gossiping my life behind my back.
i know that i was not born in this world,
to be looked down by others.
to be hurt by them.
to be insulted by people.
every night i had to cry,
so that the hurt that i am feeling,
will never be the anger that someday would destroy their lives.
but i know someday i have to leave this world full of hurtful people.
and someday i’ll go to a place where i would never shed a tear again.
a place where people would be lonely.
a place where i could be truely happy.
a place that can ease all the pain,
the sadness,
the emptiness,
the loneliness,
and even the fear..
this is the other side of my life….
