diana’s blog

It’s having someone to be with

Someone you can’t be without

It’s wanting to hold them ever second
That’s what it’s all about..

It’s the happiness you feel

When everything’s gone wrong

It’s the way you sit there
And think of crazy love songs..
It’s the sadness in your heart

When you know their not there
It’s the safeness you have

When you are feeling scared..

It’s the hope you have

When everything’s gone
It’s the dreams you hold

When you are alone..

It’s having someone to talk to

When no one else is listening

It’s being so in love

That nothing in your life is missing..

It’s knowing I love you

And I’ll love you forever
It’s thinking of you every second
That’s what true love is! ..

I want the whole world to know

That since the first night
you walk into my life…
nothing has been the same..

as I wait for you to pass by,
just to get a glimpse of you…
I want you to know,

That I’m the only one

That would walk an fire for you..

And how you make my heart pound like thunder,
As you take my breath away,
With your smiles,
I can’t escape…

I feel that I am tide up in chains,

For all this my heart and soul feels,

Since you have captured my heart,
Cause all I do…

Is crave and yearn, for your everlasting love..

I will always truly love only you..

Have you ever been in love?

Been in love where your heart races
when you see him..

when you ache when his not there..
Have you ever been in love?

Been in love when your head can only think
about him..
Have you ever been in love?
Been in love where only your future
Is all that matters..

You see him in our arms forever and ever..

Have you ever been in love?
Been in real love ?

I have…
the moment my heart fell for you..

everyday of my life i have to live my difficult life.
where i have to deal with other people’s annoying words.
where i have to deal with other people’s feelings.
where i have to deal with what other people think or says to me.
when i have to laugh at those hurtful, annoying jokes.
every single day of my life i have to live my life behind a mask, a mask that’s always happy and always has a big smile on it.
when im behind that mask you’ll never see me cry, sad or being lonely.
but when you’ll just look deeper, you’ll see…
that when people say annoying things or hurtful things to me,
i just want to punch their annoyinng face until they take back what they had said.
sometimes i just want to cry my eyes out but there’s no tears…
and sometimes as i lay on my bed, while looking at the ceiling..
a tear fall down my face, somehow, i just cant stop it.
i hate it when people laugh..
when people whispers..
when people are look at me..
when people stares.
its so painful when people are gossiping my life behind my back.
i know that i was not born in this world,
to be looked down by others.
to be hurt by them.
to be insulted by people.
every night i had to cry,
so that the hurt that i am feeling,
will never be the anger that someday would destroy their lives.
but i know someday i have to leave this world full of hurtful people.
and someday i’ll go to a place where i would never shed a tear again.
a place where people would be lonely.
a place where i could be truely happy.
a place that can ease all the pain,
the sadness,
the emptiness,
the loneliness,
and even the fear..   
this is the other side of my life….                                                            

love cannot be written on paper,
for paper can be tore down to pieces..
nor it is etched on stone,
for stone can be broken..
its inscribed on your heart,
and there it shall remain forever..

Sorry, for the way I stare Forgive me, for the way I think of you Pardon me, for dreaming all about you And do understand, the way I love you If you just knew what it is like this way I shiver when you’re near I stare at you just to seize the day I act so strange if you’re around I feel my heart smile when I see you I brag endlessly uttering words about you And I’d be hurt just the thought you can’t be mine If you just knew how long I’ve been hiding The secret of my affection, admiration I have I never want you to notice That simply falling in love But I hate the way I feel this pain The pain, the fear of not wanting you to know Or even just to give you a single clue For I fear to face rejection and humiliation If I’d think about how I acted when you’re near I think I’m gonna regret those things Coz’ I assume I got lost that moment Trembling, gasping for what to do If I just knew how to be myself with you If only I knew what’s in your mind Then, I didn’t have to act someone else If tomorrow comes that you’d learn The way is see you, the way I feel for you Please… I never want you to turn away Let me love the sight of you I’m really glad to have found you I confess, that it hurts so bad falling for you I can never grace my heart way to you I guess I have to stay this way With your presence so heart away I’d be unnoticed, unseen and unloved by you I do hope it’s alright If I’d be loving you silently You don’t have to worry I have nothing to ask for Although I know it can’t be Just let me be this way Maybe for awhile, for a moment Or maybe it could be forever..

why should I need to fall in love again?

when I know what would the end will be

why should I fall in love with a guy?

when all those laughter will all turn into tear drops

why should I need to find a guy to fall in love with?

when I know in the end he will just leave me crying

why should I be happy when I’m with him?

when I know someday, that the day will come that he will leave me

why should I fall in love again?

when I know it’ll hurt me again and again

why should I let him be the reason why I am happy?

when someday he will also be the reason why I am crying and feeling this horrible pain inside

bakit ba type kita?

hindi ka naman masyadong gwapo

bakit ba patay na patay ako sayo?

hindi naman kita masyadong kilala

bakit baliw na baliw ako sayo?

hindi ko naman alam ang ugali mo

bakit ba hindi ko mapigil ang pasulyap-sulyap ko sayo?

hindi ko naman alam kung tinitignan mo ko, hindi ko man lang alam kung alam mong andodoon din ako

bakit ba kita  iniisip gabi-gabi?

kung hindi ko naman alam kung may puwang ako dyan sa puso mo

bakit ba lita napapanaginipan gabi-gabi?

kung ang mga panaginip ko naman tungkol sayo ay hindi ko maintindihan ang gusto nitong ipahiwatig sa akin

i’ve cried a lot of tears because of him
the time he left me i like i’m falling apart
after he left me, i decided to make a promise
nver to love again
but…
then you came along
you change the way the story ends
you gave me the reason to…
forget him and just move on
you gave me the reason to…
break the promise i once made
you gave me the reason to…
give love a chance
you gave me the reason to…
love one more time
you gave me the reason to…
open my heart once again
and never close it coz’ we never knew when
love will come in our hearts and never go..

bakit ba siya ganun? bakit ba makasarili siya?! bakit ba masyado siyang sinungaling? bakit ba ang sama-sama niya? bakit wala siyang pakialam sa… sa paligid niya, sa mga ibang tao? gusto niya dapat nasakanya lang lahat, ayaw niyang may kashare.. kahit minsan ayaw niyang magparaya kahit dahil lang sa bestfriend niya.. kahit bestfriend niya pinagdadamutan niya.. kala ko mabait talaga siya yun pala hindi… mali pala ako ULIT.. minsan tinatanong ko sa bestfriend niya kung panu siya nakakatagal dun sa kanya.. sabi niya .. nagtitiis lang daw siya… bilib din ako sa bestfriend niya e.. kasi kaya-kaya magtiis kahit na masama ang ugali nun sakanya… sa totoo lang .. sabi-sabi nila, mang-aagaw daw siya ng mga kaibigan or kahit ng love… pero medyo naniniwala ako dun sa sabi-sabi na yun.. at gusto ko lang malaman niyang hindi ko na siya hahayaan pang may makuha o maagaw sakin dahil dati may nakuha na siya sakin at huntik na nawala sakin yun dati dahil sakanya pero ngayon tuluyan na talagang nawala! at dahil parin SAKANYA yun!!…. matagal ko na siyang tinanong sakanya kung may nililihim siya sakin na dapat ko malaman pero wala daw.. halata na siya at huling-huli ko na siya pero ayaw niya parin aminin.. nakakainis siya!… liar siya!.. sabi pa naman niyang true friends daw kami pero kung true friends kami dapat sabihin niya yung totoo.. yung totoong sagot sa mga katanungan ko sakanya.. nagdududa ako sakanya kasi madami na kong ibidensiya tungkol sa mga ginawa niya na pillit niyang tinatago…